i lost it. i can't find it.

have you ever experienced a time in your life where you had nothing more than your heart to offer, and by giving your heart could possibly risk losing yourself in it; yet you knew, positively, that you would give your heart all over again to that single person and risk it all?

have you ever experienced a heartbreak so bad just so you could hold a person for a minute, an hour, a day, a week or two; just so you knew how it felt?

have you ever experienced in your lifetime, a split second of hope which almost seemed so surreal you thought you had found your perfect rapture; yet have it robbed of you selfishly right when you actually believed it, so that another may have it easy?

have you ever experienced moments of pure despair and loss that transpired so deep in your soul, yet you'd lift your head up to God and tell Him, honestly, that you have never regretted a single decision?

have you ever experienced hatred at your loved ones for deluding your senses with warm words of comfort and love; when deep down inside they don't feel the same for you, yet, you're unsure of whether you'd rather hear the lies or grapple with the harsh truth?

have you ever experienced pure loneliness?

have you ever experienced pure grief?

have you ever experienced alienation?

have you ever experienced... love?

.............

when it comes down to crunch time, will you make the right decision or take the easy way out?

i've heard enough bullshit in my life, to know the truth.