LovabLe Neurotic

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Saturday, November 22, 2008

Sign Language is cool.

it is a way of expressing oneself, when unable to speak.

unfortunately (or, as my parents would say: Thank Dear God she's finally quiet, fortunately) i am down with Laryngitis.

Definition of Laryngitis:-
Laryngitis is an inflammation of your voice box (larynx) due to overuse, irritation or infection. Inside the larynx are your vocal cords — two folds of mucous membrane covering muscle and cartilage.

Normally your vocal cords open and close smoothly, forming sounds through their movement and vibration. But in laryngitis, your vocal cords become inflamed or irritated. This swelling causes distortion of the sounds produced by air passing over them. As a result, your voice sounds hoarse. In some cases of laryngitis, your voice can become so faint as to be undetectable.

Laryngitis may be short-lived (acute) or long lasting (chronic). Most cases of laryngitis are triggered by temporary viral infection or vocal strain and are not serious. But persistent hoarseness can sometimes signal a more serious underlying medical condition.

Since the best remedy for Laryngitis is to shut up; i have resorted to using very very basic sign language, medieval pointing with guttural sounds (note: do not do this at home! May end up looking like cave-man).

i think my parents are happy. According to mum, it's the happiest she's been in a while, since i can't bully anybody for a while. And she's starting to advise (a.k.a. take advantage of my illness to bully me back) me about everything.

i love being sick. i feel so loved.

*quiet sigh*

Thursday, September 13, 2007

is this the beginning of the end?

i wonder...

how long it took me to realize.
that this piece of beautiful pottery is not the right one.

i mean...

it looks absolutely perfect, to the finest details.
but when perfection is the problem, what then?

i seem...

really really pleased to display this piece.
who in the right mind wouldn't want an expensive and hard-to-find piece of pottery displayed?

i wouldn't...

cause i don't live in an expensive house. dammit.
i can't afford Lorenzo's... i have to use Cavenzi. but i'm darn proud of it!

i treasure...

the hardship, poverty, and meagre life i went through as a child till i was 17.
it was only during those moments of pain, did i see true kindness. and true faces of people.

i question...

myself. pushing myself to find the one reason, just one, as to why i want that pottery there permanently.

tell me i don't need a reason.
tell me i don't need perfection.
say life doesnt always turn out the right way.
tell me i have to take the best that comes.
say i can't have everything in life.

i do want everything i want.
i don't wanna give up this battle without fighting.
i don't want to settle for second best...
just because of 'lost opportunity' n words of
"What if nothing better drops by?"

i'll live my life
knowing i did have the courage
to walk out this door
and search for experiences
that enrich me
that fulfill me

and completes me.

Saturday, August 11, 2007

what if you're told something
that might change your life.
things that have happened.
experiences learned.
in another view?

selfrealization hits.
slap on the face.
pat on the back.
trust established.

what if you're told something
that is about to become.
incidents inevitable.
changes that might take place.

the trust, established
can it be overturned?
by an outsider's view?
by an outsider's words?


Wednesday, June 27, 2007

grumpy frumpy lady.

i'm grumpy because:

i was hospitalized for two nights, because of some weird intestinal infection. Close to my appendics (is that how you spell it?), causing my stomach to overproduce acid, giving my tummy the worst gastric in my life. couldnt bleeding walk.

i was anally-probed. not funny.

doc didnt allow me to have:
a) hawker food
b) coffee
c) mamak food
d) oily food
e) spicy n sour food
f) anything that will fuck up my appetite...
For six (6) whole weeks. SIX. oh my god. No coffee? No fried food? No more spicy stuff?
KiLL me NoW!

This rendered me a little grumpy for the past 3 weeks. 4 more weeks to go. All sorts of withdrawal symptoms. sigh. Kheong is not a happy boy. Indeed.

I'm frumpy because:

i havent been exercising for... erm......... 7 months? =)

Ah well, since i just got a slight increment before my confirmation in Oct (RM500 increment! Sweet), i can go to Fitness First soon.

Leanne Khor, i'm not scary.

i repeat, i am not scary.
Yes, i admit i can be scary at dota, because i'm surrounded by noobs.
and yes, i admit that i can be scary at times when i start scolding ppl.
but i do it in the spirit of defending my dearest friends, a.k.a. you.
and, and.... when i defend my throne (dota). or.... my car.. or.. my family.. or my job (?)
so, i digress. i'm not scary. hhhmmmpppph!

because i'm not.
*stamps foot*

i'm nice and loving and caring and sweet and kind and generous and.. and...

fine, i'm scary

fck off. haha.

ps: Happy Belated birthday baby. Happy Belated birthday me! =)

Thursday, June 14, 2007

Blogging in office!

First time in 9 weeks! Sweeeeet..

oklah, i'm not using my computer, i'm not even allowed a laptop yet, and no internet connection.
Yeah, it kinda sucks here.. =P

Havent found the time to blog even on weekends. Can't seem to concentrate, sit down, login, and start typing something; just grabbing a topic out of thin air.

it's been dry, mates, it's been dry.
akin to sahara.

No, not myself, my inspiration.

(WOI! i'm busy! Don't disturb!... no peace in office.. sigh)

Besides the awful day i've had yesterday, this day seems to be unravelling nicely.

1. It's been superb at hsbc. people here (oklah, i do come across an occassional certified asshole) are so much fun, nice, understanding and willing to pass on certain information so i can grow and learn.
2. No laptop and internet connection is rendering me partially paralysed in office. Good God.
3. Only source of fun: Friday drinks at 18th floor (which i've been missing, sadly, as i'm now based in Puchong Mortgage).
4. Newfound friends who stick by thick and thin: Kim, Dee, Lee Vin.
5. Haven't seen matty, edwin, lea (where the f*** are you, woman?! Why no updates, why nothing?!) at all (No, i cannot count a 10 min break at klcc as meeting, matt) It's not that i've been too busy to save my life, or any lives, come to that.. My priorities have just been reorganized.
6. i hardly drink nowadays, hardly go out clubbing (What's clubbing?) since Velvet three months ago. No wait, that was my first in.... oh God. Now i'm depressed..
7. Found out i have acid reflux. Ew. No more coffee (SIGH), no more chocolates (Oh TuhanKu), no more fried food (Goodbye my beautiful fried chicken). Nasihat doktor: Makan Sikit tapi kerap. zzz. easy for you to say, doc.
8. i hate puchong. period.
9. i hate subang. More for the people (i have my reasons), but mostly for the effable character of dota players there. Either too noobish, too cocky, and too disgusting (leaving trails of drinks or food on the computer table? Ew. Didn't all your mommies teach you manners, boys?!)
10. Three Godlike's since..... i started. Still an accomplishment. Yes i'm a nerd, shut up.
11. Wish i lost more weight. Sigh. Seem to be getting fatter since i got acid reflux. tiu. and that only took one week. niama
12. i'm going to camerons this coming weekend (kheong and my birthday). Also going to singapore the weekend after that with dee, kim, and vin. Shopping anyone?
13. i'm too poorly paid for comfort. Bloody RM1700 isnt enough to just pay for my food. omg. have to sacrifice for this prog, but heck, it's worth it. After all, i'll be earning RM4200 in 4 months.
14. i love my job. i hate the dept.
15. i cannot use a laptop without a mouse to save a life. Bloody handicapped.

That's all for now.

When i find enough updates to fill 10 slots, i'll write again. hehe. just too fucking lazy.


Sunday, May 06, 2007

OBS pics!

My 5 days of torture, turned to 5 days of fun! :D

Sail!! =)

Beautiful, eh?

Somewhere, beyond the sea......

Wah! Wat's that?!

hsbc batch 7 rocks on..
it's Monday tmr!

Tuesday, May 01, 2007

Cinta di Ujung Jalan

Setiap tetes air mataku
Telah kuberikan untuk kisahku
Mengerti tapi tak dimengerti
Cintaku tlah diujung jalan

Setiap kata dari bibirku
Kadang tak sama dalam hatiku
Tersenyum dalam hati menangis
Cintaku tlah diujung jalan

Aku sangat mengenalmu
Aku juga cintaimu..
Tapi kau tak pernah ada pengertian
Ku senang, ku sedih
Kau tak mau tahu

Aku sangat mengenalmu
Dulu kau tak begitu
Kau bintang di hatiku
Jadilah yang kumau
Ku senang,ku sedih
Kau ada denganku

Ku mengerti kau apa adanya
Begitupun yang kumau darimu
Kau tahu rasanya diabaikan
Cintaku telah diujung jalan

Agnes Monica


Translation by Luc:

Every drop of tear
I gave to this fairytale
I understand this, but do you?
My love is at the end of the road

Every word from my lips
Sometimes doesn't say what my heart screams
I smile, but in my heart I cry
My love is at the end of the road

I knew you so well
I loved you too much.
But you never understood
If I'm free, If I'm upset
You never wanted to know.

I knew you so well
But I don't know you anymore
You were the star in my life
Now be what you want to be.

I'm free, but I'm upset
Cause you're still here with me

So what if I knew you well?
It doesn't matter what I want from you
I just want you know how it feels to be abandoned

My love is at the end of the road..

Thursday, April 26, 2007

i survived!


OBS was a complete bitch.

But i had SO MUCH fun doing it anyway!

List of things completed:

1. Completed the whaling trip (rowing and sailing a 12-men boat) all around pangkor island and made it back in record time! Lesson learnt: We should always stick together, and listen to each other. We canNOT direct the wind, but we can adjust our sails.

2. Built a raft for 12 men and rowed 1km down to basecamp (even though half of it was broken, we stuck till the end and either: a) pushed the raft by swimming b) remaining ppl rowed as hard as they can) Lesson learnt: People should NOT move around a dodgy raft while rowing. zzz. stupid.

3. Got burnt like a lobster. Lesson learnt: i can NOT stay in the sun too long.

4. Got the worst allergy attack in my life. My lips triple-sized itself and rashes all over my hands, and face. urgh. Lesson learnt: do NOT put sunblock on face no matter how hot it is. Use a HUGE ass hat instead.

5. Slept 7 hours on the hard-as-rock forest floor. Lesson learnt: Just tahan-lah! :D

6. Gained 11 new great friends. Lesson learnt: You can never have enough friends... ;)

Haha. Pics laterz!

i'm home baby.

Sunday, April 15, 2007


the bitch is starting work (everybody scream FINALLY!!) in one day's time.



Big day, Monday is.

So is the Sunday. Going to OBS for 5 days.
Heard i'll die from: heat, dehydration, pain, agony, sea-sick (have to row that raft AROUND pangkor island), malnutrition (apparently they let you starve too. haha) and roast from the sun (baked Lucinda anyone?)

I'll find out then.

sweet mama.